Thank you all for your comments, its a relief to see that i wasnt just being an arse. I need to stop adding bits to it but they have to come out because it wrecks my head, once its all out i can move on, sorry for making you read it again but you must admit its good reading.
A lot of things have happened since all this but not about her so plenty to come
I have decided to create this website about Fighting My Losing Battle against Motor Neurone Disease (MND) which is a progressive TERMINAL illness that affects around 2 in 100,000 people and will KILL most within 2-5 years. My intension with this site is to try and do my little bit to raise awareness and also log how my battle goes, ups and downs. I will post regular updates as much as i can.
Wednesday, 17 April 2013
Sunday, 14 April 2013
Time for the truth
When i was diagnosed with this disease i was going through organising the farse wedding, now straight away i told her if she cant handle this i wouldn't blame her but no, we can deal with this together, right ok. Now all through this wedding planning she got more help from my mum and dad than her own parents, the money my mum and dad put in and the time and effort they put in to make it happen. When it came to any work needing doing on the house it was my dad she asks because in her words her dad would make a mess, it was my dad that looked after the dog when we went away because again she didn't trust her dad. All through the organising of the wedding it was my family doing all the helping out and all the money from my work mates, my motorbike i sold and my beloved fishing tackle i sold all controlled by her for the wedding! by the time the wedding came round 90% of people there was my family! Many times through this their were arguments over the wedding and a few times i wanted to just forget it, it was hard enough coming to terms with what Ive got without all the stupid petty little things. The help we had from my mums work friends who paid for our holiday to Portugal, spends included, the laptop they paid for that she kept. It was my uncle she borrowed 4 grand off without me knowing and said she would pay back 500 a month but she never has. My pension which she has tried to get a share of, all 7 grand was used to pay that back and set up in a new home.
After the wedding is were it started to get worse, arguments all the time over petty things, needing help because work was so hard which i got help from her mum and sister. Again i said if its too much i wouldn't hold it against her but no as long as people don't judge her its fine, right ok. Getting used to the fact your wife was having to do your personal care was hard enough but now i was having to allow her mum and sister to help. As i became more unsteady on my suggestions were made about grab rails in the bathroom but her reaction was will it damage her tiles! no thought of how it would help me, they never got put in. Falls followed after that, I'm sure if you have read my early blog posts you will know how many I've had, the one i will never forget was going to get in the car when it was raining, rushing because she didn't want to get her hair wet i fell into the car. I have never fell since left the house.
As you will be aware the extension was the next thing which again all the money raised for it was done by my family, my brother and sister inlaw helped out with me and the some of there extension aswel as work and two young lads, kids are a doddle compaired to a full time job like hers! I was always led to believe that her sister was a bad one and always been the favourite, many times at partys i would be having a good time but we had to leave because her sister had said or done something. I do still have contact with them both and the lads because they know what she has done is wrong, thats her own sister. Her dad did bits when he could be bothered, he was always one who could talk a good job but never follow it through, half a job man. Now dont get me wrong the laughs and good times far out weighed these flaws but watching my dad slog his guts out day after day, rain or shine was not fair. Her mum helped care for me and become someone i could talk to because she was now leaving the house first thing and would only return sometime at night.
Anyway befoe the extension got underway i asked are you sure about this, we had been falling out a lot as i got worse but no, she said yea as long as people dont judge, now this is because all people were seeing on her facebook was what shes doing, were she is going and nothing about me, at this time i was unable to use laptop and people wanted to know, i constantly stuck up for her even though i did agree with what was being said and so did her own mother. So the extension got under way and my dad, danny and Bris worked tirelessly getting things going, numerous family members and friends came and got stuck in, my mum was round every spare minute cleaning the house after doing a night shift, doing all the washing, her mum, sister and now Rachael all helping me, reluctantly allowed Rachael to help, but that still wasnt enough, she now said she cant do her work because of noise so her bedroom got a make over and yet again my dad stopped doing work on the extension to build all her furniture because she didnt trust her dad to do a good job, she even convinced me to allow her to get a 500 pound overdraft for a mulberry handbag and she would sort out paying it off, also at this point she had full control of both the joint and my bank card, she was terrible for buying clothes all the time, her spare room and attic full with bin bags of clothes. Their was never any money in the house to pay for all bits and bobs people were buying.all while people were fundraising and working on her house.
Another thing that upset me was she never came with me to appointments, meetings or anything to do with me, even all the professionals noticed she was never there, it was my mum and dad that always come.
The next thing was the crash diet started and going gym, obviously slimming for the new fella, we did come across some diet pills called T 5s, i never new anything about her getting them and when asked about them she fobbed me off saying she wasnt taking them but i didn't believe her. One day when she was well into zumba she told me she was doing a zumbathon for cancer or something, hang on a minute what about supporting your husbands cause? The dying in front of your eyes because their is no cure, no funding, no awareness, nothing! proof i was not in her list of priorities, i always said it was her first, the dog then me.
Now she had the nice space to do work but now i never seen her, she would spend all night in there i was left on my own down stairs because she had typing to do, i knew she was lying i could see the router lights going mad, on internet obviously. This is where the school reunions started, again you can see in an early blog post about my concern over 2 school friends sending messages to her on facebook that were inappropriate were going, my rock Rachael was out at the same as one reunion confronted her after watching the wife all over one of these lads on the dance floor, again it was made out Rachael was bang out of order and i fell for it, she has a very good yet dangerous way of turning things around so much that begin to doubt yourself! who you are? am i cracking up? so many times i would be apologising for stuff not knowing were i was in the wrong. More reunions followed ,trips to a so called friend become more frequent because she couldnt talk to her mum because shes always pissed! her words not mine. Through all this she was becoming more secretive leaving the laptop upstairs were i couldnt get it and her mobile become glued to her and on silent yet whenever anyone tried ring because we never new where she was or what time she would be back, i had never known her to be out the house so much, but every time i fell for the lies and feeble excuses. This was all a bit dodgey. I really started to feel quite lonely and a burden, things like asking for a drink it was always in a minute or when eastenders has finished.I had a big insecurity about the toilet situation, after all im a young man and all of a sudden I need my arse wiping , not a nice thing and it was made very clear she didn't want to do it, you always save it for me were the words used, even Danny witnessed it, its a far cry from the woman 6 month earlier declaring her undying love at our wedding! There was also the time my physio called ambulance concerned about pain in my arm from a fall, she never came the hospital, couldn't because of work! Says it all rally.
It was all starting to come clear and then come the classic line for the third time in a few weeks, i think we would be better as friends, and the best bit was i can stay there if i pay half to bills which is 700 pound, basically all my benefits. She become so cold and heartless its unbelievable. One thing sticks in my mind is the night she told she needed go 24 hour asda at 10 at night for my anniversary present so i said get me in bed n go, it wont take long, well she came strolling in at some time in the early hours and tried just go upstairs but i asked were she had been she had nothing from asda, no car and stunk of booze, the bullshit excuse was shocking, cant believe she left me that long, i couldnt alert anyone and what if there had been a fire! a lay awake all night with my head up my arse wondering how could she be so nasty. When i got my anniversary present it was a cup and card 99p still stuck on back, that said it all and again she said the friends thing.
I talked to her dad and mum all the time and they said they were disgusted by her behaviour, when i said she is definitely seeing someone else they said they would flatten her if she was. At this point her dad was going to have a word, so off he went upstairs were she always was. A good hour passed and he came down, never really said anything about it and i wasnt going to ask, he said he was getting off and ill see you later, no probs. Five minutes later she comes down and never really said anything, i then asked did your dad have a word? yea, he agrees with me, its like your mum and are taking over and its his daughters house! my heart sunk and i couldnt believe what i just heard! i was in shock and didnt no what say, i did say i will let them know but she said dont go causing shit now, I remember this so vivid, the feeling was awful. As you can imagine I never slept that night going over and over in my head. Well when I saw my dad walk in next morning tools in hand I couldn't bare it, the work he was putting in to be treated like that, so I told him, instantly I saw the life drain out of him, he didn't deserve this. My dad down tools that day, clearly frustrated he confronted her dad who back tracked completely and was so apologetic to me but ultimately led to a big change in my mind, I new then it was over, once she heard I told my dad I got the blame for destroying two families, can you believe it?
I made the decision to leave the home which has been thrown at me through the divorce ,even after I left I gave her 200 pound because she was skint and asked everyone to not put things on facebook which everyone stuck to until she started, kept saying keep it amcable but she never has been. There was no mention of her lover staying over within weeks of me leaving, hiding his car round the corner.
For about a month after I continued to go her mum and dads having a drink and a chat yet they still didn't believe she was seeing someone else. The last time i was there her mums words to me were as far as im concerned you will always be our son inlaw nobody will replace you. As you can imagine it was difficult now with me having to live at my mums but this has been well documented in my previous blogs, all the difficulties with belongings and stuff. A few weeks later my dad called round to see why they havnt been in touch, they had completely turned and on first name basis with the new fella. I know its their daughter but come on it didnt need be like this.
Its been said before that this sorry excuse of a woman made threats towards my nephew, Hollie and Rachaels kids, a child social worker making threats towards children and the national fostering agency obviously accept this sort of behaviour.
A note to her mum and dad, i hope your proud of your horrid daughter and of your selves, you know what she did to me and how she neglected me. She controlled me, she took control of my money and obviously controlls you.
I welcome you to come here look me in the eyes and tell this is not true, you know were i am.
I can say I am so proud of my mum and dad, they will do anything for anybody and they have so many friends who can vouch for that, we still have all these wonderful people behind us and supporting us, I am truly grateful to every one of you.
I can imagine people will think I am just being bitter, that's fine, I will not say there were no good times but extravagant gifs and expensive breaks don't solve everything. Being the way I am I have a lot of time to think and reflect on what has happened and some may believe I deserve this, maybe, my mum and dad don't.
As i have said we had police called on us twice for harrassment, said she had to move out because of harassment, she went away because of all the stress, still wouldn't return my belongings, even got a woman who was a go between but still failed. I have lost so much memories, money, items and more importantly precious time with hollie, mum, dad and people that actually cared, i hold her fully responsible for my rapid decline in health.
I have no faith in the justice system in this country its disgusting and if you can tell me what i have done wrong please feel free to comment here!
WERE IS JUSTICE FOR THE NEGLECT AND ABUSE? Maybe this is it.
After the wedding is were it started to get worse, arguments all the time over petty things, needing help because work was so hard which i got help from her mum and sister. Again i said if its too much i wouldn't hold it against her but no as long as people don't judge her its fine, right ok. Getting used to the fact your wife was having to do your personal care was hard enough but now i was having to allow her mum and sister to help. As i became more unsteady on my suggestions were made about grab rails in the bathroom but her reaction was will it damage her tiles! no thought of how it would help me, they never got put in. Falls followed after that, I'm sure if you have read my early blog posts you will know how many I've had, the one i will never forget was going to get in the car when it was raining, rushing because she didn't want to get her hair wet i fell into the car. I have never fell since left the house.
As you will be aware the extension was the next thing which again all the money raised for it was done by my family, my brother and sister inlaw helped out with me and the some of there extension aswel as work and two young lads, kids are a doddle compaired to a full time job like hers! I was always led to believe that her sister was a bad one and always been the favourite, many times at partys i would be having a good time but we had to leave because her sister had said or done something. I do still have contact with them both and the lads because they know what she has done is wrong, thats her own sister. Her dad did bits when he could be bothered, he was always one who could talk a good job but never follow it through, half a job man. Now dont get me wrong the laughs and good times far out weighed these flaws but watching my dad slog his guts out day after day, rain or shine was not fair. Her mum helped care for me and become someone i could talk to because she was now leaving the house first thing and would only return sometime at night.
Anyway befoe the extension got underway i asked are you sure about this, we had been falling out a lot as i got worse but no, she said yea as long as people dont judge, now this is because all people were seeing on her facebook was what shes doing, were she is going and nothing about me, at this time i was unable to use laptop and people wanted to know, i constantly stuck up for her even though i did agree with what was being said and so did her own mother. So the extension got under way and my dad, danny and Bris worked tirelessly getting things going, numerous family members and friends came and got stuck in, my mum was round every spare minute cleaning the house after doing a night shift, doing all the washing, her mum, sister and now Rachael all helping me, reluctantly allowed Rachael to help, but that still wasnt enough, she now said she cant do her work because of noise so her bedroom got a make over and yet again my dad stopped doing work on the extension to build all her furniture because she didnt trust her dad to do a good job, she even convinced me to allow her to get a 500 pound overdraft for a mulberry handbag and she would sort out paying it off, also at this point she had full control of both the joint and my bank card, she was terrible for buying clothes all the time, her spare room and attic full with bin bags of clothes. Their was never any money in the house to pay for all bits and bobs people were buying.all while people were fundraising and working on her house.
Another thing that upset me was she never came with me to appointments, meetings or anything to do with me, even all the professionals noticed she was never there, it was my mum and dad that always come.
The next thing was the crash diet started and going gym, obviously slimming for the new fella, we did come across some diet pills called T 5s, i never new anything about her getting them and when asked about them she fobbed me off saying she wasnt taking them but i didn't believe her. One day when she was well into zumba she told me she was doing a zumbathon for cancer or something, hang on a minute what about supporting your husbands cause? The dying in front of your eyes because their is no cure, no funding, no awareness, nothing! proof i was not in her list of priorities, i always said it was her first, the dog then me.
Now she had the nice space to do work but now i never seen her, she would spend all night in there i was left on my own down stairs because she had typing to do, i knew she was lying i could see the router lights going mad, on internet obviously. This is where the school reunions started, again you can see in an early blog post about my concern over 2 school friends sending messages to her on facebook that were inappropriate were going, my rock Rachael was out at the same as one reunion confronted her after watching the wife all over one of these lads on the dance floor, again it was made out Rachael was bang out of order and i fell for it, she has a very good yet dangerous way of turning things around so much that begin to doubt yourself! who you are? am i cracking up? so many times i would be apologising for stuff not knowing were i was in the wrong. More reunions followed ,trips to a so called friend become more frequent because she couldnt talk to her mum because shes always pissed! her words not mine. Through all this she was becoming more secretive leaving the laptop upstairs were i couldnt get it and her mobile become glued to her and on silent yet whenever anyone tried ring because we never new where she was or what time she would be back, i had never known her to be out the house so much, but every time i fell for the lies and feeble excuses. This was all a bit dodgey. I really started to feel quite lonely and a burden, things like asking for a drink it was always in a minute or when eastenders has finished.I had a big insecurity about the toilet situation, after all im a young man and all of a sudden I need my arse wiping , not a nice thing and it was made very clear she didn't want to do it, you always save it for me were the words used, even Danny witnessed it, its a far cry from the woman 6 month earlier declaring her undying love at our wedding! There was also the time my physio called ambulance concerned about pain in my arm from a fall, she never came the hospital, couldn't because of work! Says it all rally.
It was all starting to come clear and then come the classic line for the third time in a few weeks, i think we would be better as friends, and the best bit was i can stay there if i pay half to bills which is 700 pound, basically all my benefits. She become so cold and heartless its unbelievable. One thing sticks in my mind is the night she told she needed go 24 hour asda at 10 at night for my anniversary present so i said get me in bed n go, it wont take long, well she came strolling in at some time in the early hours and tried just go upstairs but i asked were she had been she had nothing from asda, no car and stunk of booze, the bullshit excuse was shocking, cant believe she left me that long, i couldnt alert anyone and what if there had been a fire! a lay awake all night with my head up my arse wondering how could she be so nasty. When i got my anniversary present it was a cup and card 99p still stuck on back, that said it all and again she said the friends thing.
I talked to her dad and mum all the time and they said they were disgusted by her behaviour, when i said she is definitely seeing someone else they said they would flatten her if she was. At this point her dad was going to have a word, so off he went upstairs were she always was. A good hour passed and he came down, never really said anything about it and i wasnt going to ask, he said he was getting off and ill see you later, no probs. Five minutes later she comes down and never really said anything, i then asked did your dad have a word? yea, he agrees with me, its like your mum and are taking over and its his daughters house! my heart sunk and i couldnt believe what i just heard! i was in shock and didnt no what say, i did say i will let them know but she said dont go causing shit now, I remember this so vivid, the feeling was awful. As you can imagine I never slept that night going over and over in my head. Well when I saw my dad walk in next morning tools in hand I couldn't bare it, the work he was putting in to be treated like that, so I told him, instantly I saw the life drain out of him, he didn't deserve this. My dad down tools that day, clearly frustrated he confronted her dad who back tracked completely and was so apologetic to me but ultimately led to a big change in my mind, I new then it was over, once she heard I told my dad I got the blame for destroying two families, can you believe it?
I made the decision to leave the home which has been thrown at me through the divorce ,even after I left I gave her 200 pound because she was skint and asked everyone to not put things on facebook which everyone stuck to until she started, kept saying keep it amcable but she never has been. There was no mention of her lover staying over within weeks of me leaving, hiding his car round the corner.
For about a month after I continued to go her mum and dads having a drink and a chat yet they still didn't believe she was seeing someone else. The last time i was there her mums words to me were as far as im concerned you will always be our son inlaw nobody will replace you. As you can imagine it was difficult now with me having to live at my mums but this has been well documented in my previous blogs, all the difficulties with belongings and stuff. A few weeks later my dad called round to see why they havnt been in touch, they had completely turned and on first name basis with the new fella. I know its their daughter but come on it didnt need be like this.
Its been said before that this sorry excuse of a woman made threats towards my nephew, Hollie and Rachaels kids, a child social worker making threats towards children and the national fostering agency obviously accept this sort of behaviour.
A note to her mum and dad, i hope your proud of your horrid daughter and of your selves, you know what she did to me and how she neglected me. She controlled me, she took control of my money and obviously controlls you.
I welcome you to come here look me in the eyes and tell this is not true, you know were i am.
I can say I am so proud of my mum and dad, they will do anything for anybody and they have so many friends who can vouch for that, we still have all these wonderful people behind us and supporting us, I am truly grateful to every one of you.
I can imagine people will think I am just being bitter, that's fine, I will not say there were no good times but extravagant gifs and expensive breaks don't solve everything. Being the way I am I have a lot of time to think and reflect on what has happened and some may believe I deserve this, maybe, my mum and dad don't.
As i have said we had police called on us twice for harrassment, said she had to move out because of harassment, she went away because of all the stress, still wouldn't return my belongings, even got a woman who was a go between but still failed. I have lost so much memories, money, items and more importantly precious time with hollie, mum, dad and people that actually cared, i hold her fully responsible for my rapid decline in health.
I have no faith in the justice system in this country its disgusting and if you can tell me what i have done wrong please feel free to comment here!
WERE IS JUSTICE FOR THE NEGLECT AND ABUSE? Maybe this is it.
Thursday, 28 March 2013
Lads from work
Ive goto say i am amazed at what the lads from work have done and continue to do. Its only a small company which i worked for 19 years and have some fantastic memories, including some great laughs and fall outs, I've probably fell out with all of them at some point lol. The money they have raised for me is unbelievable and stuck by me were others treated me like something they have stood in.
All i can say is a massive thank you for everything guys i really appreciate all you do, still a bunch of nob eds though!
If anyone needs a glass carrier check out the link to Supertrucks, these are the best ones you can buy.
Supertrucks
All i can say is a massive thank you for everything guys i really appreciate all you do, still a bunch of nob eds though!
If anyone needs a glass carrier check out the link to Supertrucks, these are the best ones you can buy.
Supertrucks
Eye gaze
Gaze selection crashed once last night and again this morning, just comes
up gaze selection has stopped working and needs to close. I feel so let down by
this c15, if i knew then what i know now i would never have got it. My mum spent
her pension that she worked 28 years on something that is meant to give so much
independence when in reality its just an over priced talking device but only in
the day time. Maybe i do want too much from it but for the money it should be
far more powerful than it is.
Pretty early on i realised it was very limited with hard drive space, memory and processor, i find this shit considering i can buy a notebook with more power so the size cant be an issue. I feel we was not advised of this in the beginning of any of this, we were lead to believe its all singing all dancing machine. The problem with gaze crashing is down to processor and RAM, i am unable to use the majority of programs i want to use, my website needs moving to my new domain (cvmnd.com) but again i get so far and something goes wrong.
I suppose its my fault for expecting to be able to do things on here any normal person can do, obviously i was wrong. I now will only be doing the bare minimum on this thing due to the frustration it causes me, it really gets me down.
On a brighter note my divorce has been granted ;-)
The funny part part was the devil woman turned up at the court with the sad get she committed adultery with and for some reason couldn't look my dad in the eye! wonder why? also stopped my dad from being aloud to speak, i wonder why? her mum and dad must be so proud.
Tuesday, 19 March 2013
A bit better
Feeling a bit better but still sleeping a lot and cant stop thinking don't wake up. Eyegaze pissing me off again, I've stopped messing about with it because it just doesn't have the ability to do much, it was wishful thinking that i would be able to do as much as i would like, anyway the txt messaging wont work, its been like this since Friday! we was given a 24 hour help line, after numerous calls we got no answer, Monday we finally got hold of someone who was going to ring back with a date for someone come out, never rung back!
I give up and will just use it for the bare minimum, sick of stressing over it and wasting what little time i have left.
I give up and will just use it for the bare minimum, sick of stressing over it and wasting what little time i have left.
Friday, 15 March 2013
Praying
As you may of guessed i am not very religious but i find myself praying now and again, mainly for a break from the tosser, obviously not making a bit of difference. Yesterday i got up at half 6 in morning and half 10 in the morning i was back in bed till 2 in the afternoon, by half 5 i was back in bed till half 8, then by half 10 it was off to bed again! When got in bed at half 5 i found myself praying, not for a break, i was asking to not wake up, its really getting to me now, I'm not as tough as you all think, there are plenty of people on my facebook stronger than me and in some cases been fighting this for many years.
I am scared of dying, i am scared of it being really horrid time, i want it to happen in my sleep.
Thanks Shane for your message and sorry i couldn't be there, your grandad was an amazing man and very much a grandad to us growing up and Winnie was another nan, always kept an eye on me and gave me a few bollockings over the years lol. Good to hear from you, keep in touch mate
I am scared of dying, i am scared of it being really horrid time, i want it to happen in my sleep.
Thanks Shane for your message and sorry i couldn't be there, your grandad was an amazing man and very much a grandad to us growing up and Winnie was another nan, always kept an eye on me and gave me a few bollockings over the years lol. Good to hear from you, keep in touch mate
Thursday, 14 March 2013
Just another day in hell
First off thanks for the recent messages, i will reply as soon as i can.
I seem to be losing interest in anything, the days just keep rolling on with nothing changing, same things every day, once the warmer weather comes i can get out more which will help.
For some reason i seem be sleeping more, its not like me to sleep so much. Also ive recently been having panic attacks for no reason, these are quite frightening. Personally i think my body is starting to give up the fight, im getting no rest from this tosser, its relentless!
I seem to be losing interest in anything, the days just keep rolling on with nothing changing, same things every day, once the warmer weather comes i can get out more which will help.
For some reason i seem be sleeping more, its not like me to sleep so much. Also ive recently been having panic attacks for no reason, these are quite frightening. Personally i think my body is starting to give up the fight, im getting no rest from this tosser, its relentless!
Saturday, 2 March 2013
Life
A bit of good news, finally get my divorce ;-) still not getting the money owed or my possesions so wheels are in motion to go private. Trying to explain to hollie why IT wont return her things is difficult.
We did a video the other day which i will put on here eventually. While editing it i was repulsed by the way i looked, it made me physically sick! I look awful and sound even worse.
Its my birthday on tuesday and probably the last one i will see, i cant imagine what state i would be in twelve months time. My fight is coming to a close, both physically and mentally, the inability to eat has knocked me off my feet, everything you see and hear is food and its killing me. Being uncomfortable is another nightmare both in bed and in chair. Not talking is another one, being unable to join in any conversation makes me feel lonely.
I really cant handle this any more, im not as strong as some of you out there, struggling to see what is worth all this pain and suffering, im done!
We did a video the other day which i will put on here eventually. While editing it i was repulsed by the way i looked, it made me physically sick! I look awful and sound even worse.
Its my birthday on tuesday and probably the last one i will see, i cant imagine what state i would be in twelve months time. My fight is coming to a close, both physically and mentally, the inability to eat has knocked me off my feet, everything you see and hear is food and its killing me. Being uncomfortable is another nightmare both in bed and in chair. Not talking is another one, being unable to join in any conversation makes me feel lonely.
I really cant handle this any more, im not as strong as some of you out there, struggling to see what is worth all this pain and suffering, im done!
Monday, 18 February 2013
So whats been happening
Well this may piss the wife off but I'm still alive after a shocking few week. First off i spent a week in hospice trying to manage the pain in my hands but i had a rather nasty reaction to ketamine hariperidol (prob spelt wrong) my jaw locked on my tongue twice! it felt like i was biting through it, its now happened a few times and my tongue feels battered so i gave up and come home. I do have to say the hospice is a fantastic place and the staff are amazing.
I came home on Sunday but didn't feel rite all week. On Friday night an ambulance was called.i was taken to whiston and quickly found out i had pneumonia. I am finally home after the most traumatic and frighting time of my life, i really thought that was it, the minute i heard pneumonia my heart sunk and i thought if i went sleep i wouldn't wake up. My mum, dad and Rachael never left my side, thanks everyone for heir messages and those who took the time to vist, i really appreciate it, also a massive thank you to Jess Bailey for helping Racheal with the kids allowing her to stay with me, between my mum ,dad, our Lisa, Rachael, aunty Pam, Danny and bris i the best people i could possibly ask for, even our Danny offered to drive up from down south to help Rachael with her kids, so proud and lucky to have these people around me.Hopefully stay out of hosi for a while now.
Now i can get back to devorcing the evil one who continues to ignore everything and still will not return items of mine and Hollies, its difficult to explain to a nine year old why she cant have her things, at least were all set for going to court now and her and her evil new bf can carry on with their sad lives! oh and the evil parents who witnessed what she did. At least i know who to haunt when i die.
Now i can get back to devorcing the evil one who continues to ignore everything and still will not return items of mine and Hollies, its difficult to explain to a nine year old why she cant have her things, at least were all set for going to court now and her and her evil new bf can carry on with their sad lives! oh and the evil parents who witnessed what she did. At least i know who to haunt when i die.
Thursday, 7 February 2013
Pain
Currently in Willowbrook Hospice to try control the pain, now were not talking of pain that is like a head ache or a sharp pain, its my hands mainly, the only way i can explain it is like a tingling or pins and needles but 10 times more annoying. This has been going on for months, i cant bare my fingers or my hands touching anything, your probably thinking soft arse but believe me its not nice, for me to come here says how bad its got, plus the hip pain that has started recently. I would love someone to experience what its like for a day. Yes i know, stop moaning lol!
On the flip side the Hospice is a fantastic place and all the staff are very nice. I do feel comfortable here compared to Aintree Hospital which does make a big difference to being away from The Kop (my bungalow).
I have decided my next lot of money i raise is coming here so come on buy a wristband. I will have a think of my next fund raising idea.
On the flip side the Hospice is a fantastic place and all the staff are very nice. I do feel comfortable here compared to Aintree Hospital which does make a big difference to being away from The Kop (my bungalow).
I have decided my next lot of money i raise is coming here so come on buy a wristband. I will have a think of my next fund raising idea.
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